Have you ever started with a plan and a set of priorities and go to work on them only to have other priorities surface and other things that need attention? Then a whole month goes by and even though you got a lot done that was worthwhile, the main objectives are still sitting there - untouched.
That is the story of this month of January for me. It's real, and current, and I'm frustrated.
I'm also sitting in awe and wonder at what happened this month. It was pretty fantastic. It was a month of experiencing survival on a more fundamental level than I have in a long time. We had snow storms, and power outages, and two weeks of snow days home from school. We made store runs between storms and discovered how quickly stores can be depleted of stock when deliveries aren't delivered. There was a week where my car couldn't leave the driveway.
Along with many other brave souls, John took to the roads to work so he could provide for us financially. More than once each day I wondered how other families and individuals were doing and how they were being affected by these events. I wondered how they were responding and surviving. I wondered what plans they were going to have to change because of missed work and unexpected time off. I wondered what priorities of theirs were left on the table for a time. All of us were in this together and all of us have our own ways of surviving on all levels.
I've learned a few things over the last few weeks. First, survival is exhausting. Everything requires more time, more rest, moving slower. Second, despite my scariest imaginations about survival, I can do it, and so can my community. I'm not perfectly prepared but I'm prepared enough. I know that now. Lastly, a generator is a wonderful investment that I highly recommend to anyone who lives in areas susceptible to power outages. The psychic relief is beyond compare.
While survival was interesting to live and to explore I didn't do just that. There was much fun to be had. I mean, there was over a foot of snow on the ground at our house for over a week. That's unheard of here in Portland. And we had a frozen pond to take advantage of. Every day our cats, and kids, and I ventured out to play. We skated (all of us) on the pond. We rolled in the snow. We made thrones out of shoveled piles. Frances ate enough snow to turn herself into a snowgirl. We had hot fires and hot chocolate daily.
This month, my attention was definitely needed in areas that didn't have anything to do with my list. Or did they? My overarching priority is to live an interesting life. Well, I sure was interested in my life experience the last few weeks. In spite of my exhaustion, I was in total flow. While I'm totally frustrated about my progress of some of my pet projects, I was living life to its fullest!
Ultimately, I want to bring all these threads together into one package. It includes a well run home, successful work, play, financial stability, and various sports and adventures for my family and me.
And that's where growing Mojo comes in. You see, right now I'm still growing my energy and my strength to do all of these things. I can imagine them. I know how to do many of them. And I'm still neurologically weak enough that it's hard to pull it off. More accurately, it's hard to pull them off in the way that I did them before. Before I got sick, that is.
So how does an ambitious person like myself manifest the life of her dreams when she's neurologically weak and only knows how to use her old strategy of myopic focus and strength to get from point A to point B? It's one word:
Mojo for me is the ability to look at the last month of lived experience and embrace it as the real priorities for me in my life at this time. Old Kate would have said, "that was fun now it's time to get back to real life." New Kate realizes that was and is real life. And that my living takes care of my to do list. You see, I'll bring a new flavor to my list moving forward. One that I would not have brought without several weeks of snow play, carrying wood, and making sure we had enough food and water.
This doesn't come easily to me. I can't just eliminate my Go Getter. Even though she doesn't want to create the way she used to, she still wants to manifest a big fat juicy life. What I can do is grow her a cohort ---Mojo. As I write this I feel them becoming fast friends. Maybe this is the next phase of strengthening my neurology. Growing in Mojo. Hooking her up with Go Getter. Putting them to work on manifesting the life of my dreams and living it too.
Go Getter is the focus, Mojo is the pulse. This is getting yummy.
How about you? How's your Mojo? How do you define it for yourself? Please hit the reply button and let me know.
And as always, if you'd like to explore your Mojo with me, I have 1:1 individual and coaching options available. You can check them out at KateEskew.com or hit reply to schedule a free 30 minute session by phone with me to discover which options would be best for you.
Wishing you joy,
P.S. I had so much pent up creative energy last week that I was able to write this letter and do a major update to my website. Hooray for Got Getter and Mojo working together! Hop on over to KateEskew.com to check it out. I'm super proud of it. There are now links on the home page to my services. There is fresh information about my coaching services as well. Woot!
P.S. If you know someone who is growing in their Mojo and would appreciate knowing about my work, please forward this letter to them. Many blessings and thank you.
Welcome. This is where I share what's on my mind and in my heart. You'll see that there's an offer to work with me in every letter. I'm shifting that as I go. Whether the offers excite you or turn you off I hope you find a juicy nugget or two in here that infuses you with more of you. Be kind to yourself because you rock. - Kate